Well, I took the first step. I went and got my hair cut!
No, no pictures yet.
I am working on ME!
I think I cut my hair just to distract me from what I really was supposed to be changing...my "me"...my inner ME. It was just so much easier to go to Blanca's and get it washed and styled. I looked different, but that ME was still there.
Let me explain...
Nancy left a book with me before she left called The Bait of Satan by John Bevere. I read it almost non-stop when she left, but every time it hit a sore spot on my inner ME. I set it down for a day or two. I didn't like what it was saying to me. It was too true. It brought up stuff that I hid for years and I didn't want to remember anymore. I was DONE with it...I "forgave and forgot" and buried it somewhere down in there.
I have a special project, now, just me and the Lord. I am working on cleaning up some of those areas that I hid so well. I am arguing with the Lord about some pride issues that I didn't want to give up...you know...it was THE OTHER PERSON'S fault, anyway. I also realized that a lot of stuff I have only forgiven, but not really forgotten.
So, that's where I am...I'm taking advantage of these cold, winter months to spend more time on the real "me".
By the way...my teenage son came up to me on Sunday and hugged me hard right out side of church and said..."mom, I LOVE your hair cut like this!"
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Ok- First- if you are getting teenage boy compliments then you seriously NEED to put up pictures, soon!
Second. I hear you about the inner "ME" - it probably was the other guys fault- our gal is to look like Christ inside and outside- our thoughts and actions. And that means some really tough rearranging of priorities. I have the neatest checklist from Corrie Ten Boom .
I'm going to put it up on my blog.
Goal- our goal not our gal!
I'm always looking for some easy way to do my hair. What's it look like?
That's the quick, easy way to a 'new me', but I totally agree with the 'new me' look starting with the INSIDE! and it sure takes a whole lot longer to prepare! Sometimes I blame it on no time to work on it. I want simple and quick ways, but that's not what God wants from me. Thanks for the reminder.
What's on the inside, eventually comes to the outside. Kind of scarey sometimes, isn't it! I wonder if there's anyone out there who doesn't have to work on the inside of "me"? I'd sure like to meet them. Thankful we have each other to pray for and with. Makes the working on "me" a lot easier!
Why are you so scared to let your readers see you?
Okay, ordering the book today...
And what was the other one you were telling me about?
Liz, the other book was The Power of Spoken Blessings by Bill Gothard
You sound like you are going through some "inside stuff" similar to what I am going through. I am just not ready to blog about it yet. :)
God spoke to me as well when reading that book. The words
on those pages are truly inspired
and hit right to the heart. I believe that God uses others to
challenge us to look within and help us be cleansed from our past.
God has been cleansing me daily...oh what freedom because of this cleansing!
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